Honesty is the Best Policy

I have forgotten how great it is to have the company of a genuine friend. God really uses the words of other people to humble us but often just the presence of someone who is willing to listen allows us to open our hearts to be honest with ourselves. Thanks Lenny *hug

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." 1 John 4:18

I love my mom so much but I'm not very good at showing it. It's so easy to be selfish around her because she doesn't like to vocalize her pain. But after 18 year of being her daughter I should know how much I hurt her by my ignorant actions. Simple things like not calling and not eating dinner at home, I think she's gotten the idea that I don't need her anymore. Which I want to believe is farthest from the truth but in reality...I'm growing up. I have a desire to be independent. I don't need her as much as I did when I was younger but that does not change the truth that I still love her so much. Her heart is like a rock after the pain shes seen in this past decade but I believe that God can change that.

"And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from you flesh and give you a heart of flesh." Ezekial 36:26

Just by acknowledging this fear thats been lingering, I have so much more clarity about going to New Orleans, and about what this summer should look like. I need to love God. And I need God to love through me. God has such perfect timing.