All is fading

August always brings the season of change, and after being in college for a year I thought the transition would be a little smoother. This summer has been an amazing time but I know that new experiences are awaiting. I realize how much I resemble my gold fish that I won at the fair, every time I change environments, my initial reaction is to freak out with anxiety. All that I have become accustomed to and all that I am comfortable with are blessings but my nature is to hold these treasures as if they last forever. Suitcases and boxes only represent the changes that are going to affect the relationships I have with my family and my best friends. The people I love the most are no longer within proximity and the stability I seek in these people only reflects my wandering heart.

My heart has made a home here. And as sweet as it feels to have comfort, I realize in these times how deceiving it truly is. Life is passing by like cars on a highway and soon enough my life will come to an end. As scary as that sounds I need to ask myself, "am I satisfied with how I have lived my life?" and more importantly "is God satisfied with me?"

I need not make my home on sinking sand but on a rock that lasts forever. I am so entirely grateful to the blessings that have been poured out. But I need to remember that they are only gifts from the One who blesses.

How Marvelous How Wonderful

Luke 7:36-50 (New International Version)

Jesus Anointed by a Sinful Woman

³⁶Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. ³⁷When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, ³⁸and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.

³⁹When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner."

⁴⁰Jesus answered him, "Simon, I have something to tell you."
"Tell me, teacher," he said.

⁴¹"Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. ⁴²Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?"

⁴³Simon replied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled."
"You have judged correctly," Jesus said.

⁴⁴Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. ⁴⁵You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. ⁴⁶You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. ⁴⁷Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."

⁴⁸Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."

⁴⁹The other guests began to say among themselves, "Who is this who even forgives sins?"

⁵⁰Jesus said to the woman, "Your faith has saved you; go in peace."

This is the dark before the dawn
The storm before the peace
Don't be afraid 'cause seasons change and
God is watching over you
He hears you