August always brings the season of change, and after being in college for a year I thought the transition would be a little smoother. This summer has been an amazing time but I know that new experiences are awaiting. I realize how much I resemble my gold fish that I won at the fair, every time I change environments, my initial reaction is to freak out with anxiety. All that I have become accustomed to and all that I am comfortable with are blessings but my nature is to hold these treasures as if they last forever. Suitcases and boxes only represent the changes that are going to affect the relationships I have with my family and my best friends. The people I love the most are no longer within proximity and the stability I seek in these people only reflects my wandering heart.
My heart has made a home here. And as sweet as it feels to have comfort, I realize in these times how deceiving it truly is. Life is passing by like cars on a highway and soon enough my life will come to an end. As scary as that sounds I need to ask myself, "am I satisfied with how I have lived my life?" and more importantly "is God satisfied with me?"
I need not make my home on sinking sand but on a rock that lasts forever. I am so entirely grateful to the blessings that have been poured out. But I need to remember that they are only gifts from the One who blesses.
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