More Bitter than Sweet

I have to be honest these past couple of days I have been under a cloud of frustration. Its little things that are irritating me but I think the foundation of it all is that I am not trusting in the true and Almighty God and I am doubting in His love.

I am frustrated because my summer is a huge question mark. The truth is that I just long to worship and serve Him, but being turned down and wait listed from internships is like hitting a wall. God what do you want me to do? The possibility of going to Haiti was in the air but nothing is certain. The possibility of working in Texas is in question as well. But why should I fret when God of the Universe whom I long to live for, know the path of my life? Its a matter of patience.

I am frustrated because of the relationships in my life. I gradually feel the shift of change in so many friendships. People are moving away, getting into relationships, getting married, getting too busy. I'm not sure why growing apart is so difficult but I despise the feeling of becoming irrelevant in the lives of my friends. He is working in the lives of His children and He is bringing them where He wants them to be.Its a matter of trust.

I am frustrated because of the sin of this world. The reality of it is so incredibly terrifying and crippling. The twisted ways sin manifests in this world makes me want to puke. Young girls forced into prostitution, children given AK-47s, and the lack of access to clean water. The depravity of sin tempts me to undermine the power of Christ. The crucifixion of Christ is a promise of His return, when there will be no more tears. Its a matter of belief.

I will wait, trust, and believe. That you God of the Universe are beyond all things temporary.